I once saw a quote that read:
"People don't leave jobs, they leave managers!"
True enough I thought, whilst still trying to be the best I could at work. I refused to quit. I loved my job.
Not much time passed, barely a few months. With no rights as an employee due to my length of service, I had no chance to win my case. I lost my job, and that job meant a lot to me.
I put on my brave face as I said farewell to shocked and saddened colleagues. When I walked out that door, I laughed. I laughed because it was so ridiculous. I laughed because I realised that I never want to be in that position again. I didn't want to be a slave to negative management at work. I can imagine most people suffer the wrath of low calibre, underpaid and power crazy managers. I've met a lot of them during my professional life. I pity them, because they do not understand that work doesn't have to be that way. This was a job that I loved, a job I worked extra hours for no extra pay, a job I would do even when I was at home. It's unfortunate that the passion I had for that job was not recognised.
When I sat in my car, I took a moment to think...
"What will I do next?"
"Do I even want to work another job like this?"
"I gave it my all, and lost everything because of one person!"
Then, I started to realise the danger of this spiralling of emotions and blaming others, when I really did not need to. So, I answered my anger and pain.
"No. I am stronger than this."
"No. I can do better."
"This is an opportunity for change, it is not the end!"
"This is my chance to create something of my own!"
So I turned to an idea I had; running my own business. It might not make me rich, but that's not what I truly wanted. I wanted my life to be positive and happy. I wanted time to enjoy the things I love most, and most of all, be my own boss.
So, with just enough money to last me a few months, I set everything up. Website, adverts and paperwork. At this point I realised I also had the time and opportunity to do more!
I have always dreamed of writing a book, making a movie or drawing an exciting graphic novel. I already had the tools I needed to do two of them. I began writing my novel 'The Corvus Curse'. I decided to try and market the first chapter and get people hooked. Seems this is a slow and tedious process, but I need to stick at it.
I also started practising art again. Something I had not spent much time on for the last eight years. This spiked some interest in a comic book I had previously written. Perhaps I would find someone to help me complete this, or maybe I will develop my art enough to complete it myself.
This has left me with a lot of uncertainty and worry. But, every time I think this way I just look deeper inside and I find courage to beat the odds.
"I believe in myself!"
I know that if I work hard enough. I can succeed! This won't come easy, and there will be a lot of none-believers and negative feedback along the way. People are already telling me to 'just get a job' or 'why don't you do X'. My answer is always the same.
"I spend all my time on these three projects, if I get a job, I won't have the time to make them a success! I need this. It has a time limit. I will get a job when that time runs out. Please support my decision."
So, for those of you interested, here is the link to my website and upcoming novel: